simply; benjo

2011-08-01T21:40:00.003+08:00

i don't know if you'll read this but I'm sorry for not being very fair to you >< i shouldn't have let my own emotions run into our relationship, and i'm sorry for not talking to you about it.

I should learn to be more self aware and stop being so selfish.

i'm sorry>< even though i don't think thats enough D:

2011-07-27T21:11:00.001+08:00

this is for you

I <3 YOU

2011-06-13T21:55:00.000+08:00

why is it that this has to happen again.

i thought i was already sure that my heart won't be shaken, but still D:

sighsss. WHYYYYY. why isn't my heart as disciplined as my brain D:

in other news, mugging sucks

2011-04-26T21:59:00.003+08:00

I don't know if I call myself strong or weak emotionally, because this morning i realised the extent in which i could get hurt. all the times angsting and having self doubts over it, just to realise its mostly all for nothing. almost like what happened last year during this time when I had HC too.

sighs.

but somehow, i realised that I was the only one who could understand myself, and well i pulled through. once again. I don't know if this is good or bad, but allowing myself to fall so hard must be quite bad D:

and i've decided. I'm playing for the love of the game, and not just to be in time. if i'm in or not it doesn't matter, because I love it.

more important things to focus on now, but somehow my heart isn't convinced. I guess I just need time.

2011-04-24T11:32:00.003+08:00

haven't been here for a bit and well the last week has been one crazy one.

Got back tsd and i'm glad to say I got an S and thats how much i need to improve. and acting for groups for the past weeks has been really tiring and I think that I think too much instead of reacting and I'm too kancheong. but the point is that i'm utterly useless at acting and i don't know why I've chosen that as my indiv but ah wells you get the point.

went for table tennis finals and I was very sad that they didn't win D: but watching them play made me want to pick up my bat again but still something is holding me back and I just don't feel like doing it. IE after that was kinda jittery and nerve wrenching for me, because even though i wasn't the one who was running, I could see that my buddy was really nervous and i was afraid of the result (which still happened anyway). I'm really glad that she is such a strong person and can pull through ((: haha

and then teen games was yesterday, and we played really badly for the first 2 matches because we were too tight and nervous, and only played much better during ACJC and with ACSI in the end. the game with ACS I was really really good, like really made me feel what its like to play a good game of ultimate.

and hanging out with the council gang was really interesting and we talked a lot of shit HAHA.

anyway I realised that i tend to think too much through things that I do. Even though i might say i follow my emotions and impulses, the power of my brain is so much so that it controls me even through this impulses, and maybe, just maybe, if I could let go there is so much more I can do. I should just try it later heh.

awkward

2011-04-10T16:41:00.002+08:00

you know that feeling where you somewhere and you just feel so out of place? never thought I'll experience that but I guess its just normally I'm too thickskinned/headed to really notice it. past few days have been filled with these awkward moments that really left me wondering where I belong.

and I'm starting to notice I'm not as comfortable around people the more I'm with them. Its like I start to realise things that I never seen last time. And I just feel like an ass the more I think about it.

i wonder when i will stop thinking so highly of myself. it may just that everything has been going great for me that I tend to think that, but I guess its really time to wake up and be truthful to myself.

sometimes I feel so freaking powerless, like I really want to help, but I don't know what to do, how to do it. looking at everyone feeling so sad, the only thing i want to do is to cheer them up. but I have no idea what to say. for once, words just won't come out.

maybe I'm too sensitive and think too much, but I guess thats how I live my life. Whats life if I don't live and experience it fully?

but it just makes me feel so useless.

2011-04-06T22:31:00.001+08:00

I LOVE ALL MY BUDDIES :DDD

feeling sooooo lucky today omg :DD

old

2011-04-03T16:23:00.003+08:00

this week has been kinda fun. I guess CT week somehow kinda made me realised that me life was so awesome without studying HAHAH.

anyway finally went back to training after so long. I guess all this while I've just been finding excuses for myself, to not go for training and that there are other things that are more important. but after watching IvP last saturday i was thinking. Why am I still like this after 1 year? Where has my passion gone? And i guess the civics lesson helped me realise what I was known for, my passion. and I'm glad to say I'm rediscovering my passion for ultimate ((:

anyway monday training was so really awesome, like all the throwing stuff (like stable backhand again) though i have to work on forehand but still. wednesday training was crappy cos i kept dropping easy discs and screwing up my throws hais. well anyway haha got back chem and got D, which I'm not proud of but it could have been worst seeing how i actually only started studying at like 1pm i think before chem. and i only SERIOUSLY started at 4 when i realised how screwed i was so yea. BUT I COULD HAVE WORKED HARDER SO YEAPPPP. i hope i don't screw up the rest of the CTs

anyway the week was kinda ok until friday! where we did our indivs and I'm glad that our duo is kinda workable though I have still a long ways to go, but my MONO WAS GOODDDD so i'm happy :D at least effort really translates into something. should work on my duo more often now too so yeap... and then AITNOA at night was AWESOMEEEEE (Y) :D haha superrrr nice :D haha the little kids were so cute and OMG OMG I HEARD WHEN YOU BELIEVE AGAIN D: I almost cried cos storyline oh goshhhhh hahha but yeaaa. sian i wish i could sing la D:

and then mervyn's house! which was awesome as ever :D and all the karaoke!!!

haha then council camp which i shall not disclose but i guess we did stuff we never thought we could ((: haha AND I GETTING MY BUDDIES SOON YAY 2 BUDDIES :DD HAHAH

got the books already so just need to think of how to decorate and what to write to them :D haha yay i hope my buddies are nice people who are enthu about council!!! :D can't wait for wednesday

this week is gonna be awesome ((:

escapism

2011-03-20T21:40:00.002+08:00

I realised that blogging is form of escapism, when I just want to run away from all the work that i have to do/ study.

I should really attempt to finish reading through bio by tonight so i can practice chem in peace heh. kk. And should i bring my laptop to school tmr? hmmm. i need it to check math answers so i probably should HAHA.

even though i may seem like i heck care about CTs and say like just fail and stuff, deep down inside, the pride of mine just won't let me go down like that. I actually want to do well. I don't know how well I can do but I sure hope its decent.

ok i don't expect As this time but hopefully a BBCDD? for like math chem GP bio TSD

but hopefully I don't get below a D for anything i hope.

best case scenario I can think of is like AABCD HAHA. which is the same as promos last year. But case in point, i spent like 1 month last year to get there. This year? 1 week? HAHAHA check out the difference in effort.

But i sure hope it pays off la

JIAYOU

2011-03-17T21:12:00.003+08:00

its CTs period.

but somehow I feel good. HAHA today has been a good day. Groups was slack, I did differentiation only sian. BUT duologue was damn good. even though its like an emotional piece but somehow i feel damn good whoo. HAHA then like i wrote a bit of the Canon in D thingy for groups WHICH WASN'T TOO BAD

and amphi scrimmage was fun. My forehand is somewhat back.

and this hols has been a good one. Idk. Like i've been talking to people, and yet I've been studying. Shows how much I could really do when i put my mind and heart to it. to all my friends who are out there (who may be reading this whoever) jiayou with everything. its like what I said in my DF note on FB

Don't let others tell you what they expect from you. Be yourself. and don't let anyone else change that. its cliched, but it works for me. So :D

I'm determined to do well this year. And nothing's gonna bring me down.

JIAYOU EVERYONEEEE :D

regret

2011-02-28T23:25:00.001+08:00

with council elections and council camp and all the what nots coming up, i feeling this sense of regret haha. like its not really a specific thing, just that time has passed and it will not come back

once again i fall back into the habit of being too caught up with stuff to not look back. today on the bus back i thought about so many stuff. storyline and how we haven't met up in so long, and then soon its gonna be BW DF. i seriously would like to thank whoever is out there for giving me such an awesome and dedicated and efficient crew. i mean woah we blocked like 2 entire scenes today, then like hahah tmr we're gonna finish blocking all whoo. we're bloody efficient i tell you.

and then like with DF being over that means IHC is really over, and that means one less event with my houseD. was talking to sam about the next houseD, and i really really hope that they can continue our legacy. to be honest, i would want them to better us, because somehow our houseD seriously showed what it meant to be bonded, to be able to help each other and work together properly. tbh there are a lot of things to work on, but yeap if the 31st can do that, BW would seriously be damn bloody awesome

and all this talk just leads to final night. and i don't think i'm scared about it. because its not the end. we are not just fellow houseD members. we're friends. we're going to meet up every year for chinese new year and deepavali, and like write in the BW jive everytime we go back to school to support them. really i think my houseD can last me for life. If i get married i would want them to be there. seriously

thank you all. i think it was appropriate to remember things. thats why i have this blog. to remember both the good and the bad things (: haha

LSTD

2011-02-16T21:32:00.002+08:00

I haven't been here in a while, and i guess I'm only here because I've been thinking about stuff.

I'm really good for nothing. I'm behind in studies, I suck at frisbee, I'm not smart or handsome or buff, I'm not funny and nobody likes me

my life essentially sucks.

i've always given my best and all for everything. but what if my best isn't enough?

I'm tired. like really tired. of trying to look fine when obviously everything is not. I'm tired of being the one who tries so hard, and then in the end becomes the one who tries too hard.

when did it get in my head that I'm good enough?

I wonder what happens when an optimist lose his optimism and just give up. will he ever get it back? I don't know. I guess I just have to find out.

today has been a crappy day.

adidas

2011-02-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

i believe that nothing is impossible.

if i fail, just try again. i mean why not?

CNY

2011-02-05T11:48:00.003+08:00

sucks when you are spending it by yourself at home feeling sick and thinking about how much you missed for og outing/ frisbee gathering

SIGHS. why do i have to fall sick now! how to bai nian with HouseD tmr! )): i am a very sad and lonely boy haiz. and i'm hungry. but i can only eat bread now HHAHA sucks ttm.

time to enjoy my lonely life HAHA

D'elchanto!

2011-02-02T17:10:00.005+08:00

I'm supposed to be writing my DF script now, but ah wells how to write when you see the entire facebook full of pictures of the past few days.

I guess reality just hit me that Orientation ended. All the months of anticipation and hardwork just ended last night. And damn it was such an O'some night to end. Even though the burning thing didn't burn as planned, but the spirits burning in each of the Year 5s were enough for me to say that it was a fitting conclusion to end of this orientation.

In some sense I feel that this Orientation is more OUR orientation than theirs. Somehow I feel so much more attached to this Orientation then I was to my own one last year. I felt that somehow through this, we all grew, all 183 of us and more. I still remember when like the allocations were announced and I found out I was in Story_____ I was so freaking excited because that was something that caught my eye during my own orientation, and somehow I just wanted the same experience to be brought to my juniors. And look at it now, a few months down the road, we performed something that we are so proud of. I don't know about anyone else, but everytime I hear When you Believe, during rehearsals or otherwise, I just start tearing. I don't know why, but I feel that I've put so much more into this Orientation then any other thing I have done.

When the Councilleaks thing happened, those that saw me knew how affected I was by it. During that day, I was just thinking about how much of time and effort, all the stress and strain that I have gone through, holidays I have sacrificed would go down the drain. And its not only me. ITS THE ENTIRE OTEAM. Everyone who was as tired, if not more tired than me, who continued pushing on. People like Shien who was with me the entire time, the cast who worked so hard, the sets people who came back everyday for 3 weeks to help out, all the other committees members who stayed up night after night to make sure everything was fine, and our OICs shergs and anthea who continued pushing on despite being sick, I felt so freaking pissed at how all our efforts were wasted, and just wanted to give up.

Yet somehow, I think i grew from this. If I really had given up at that point, D'elchanto would not have been as fun for me. It was that point when I realised that this Orientation was as much ours as theirs. 'Strength from within' is really something that everyone should have. Somehow I managed to find it within myself, and within the others who were around me, and I drew from it and I was determined to show whoever did that who was boss. And I think like sheryin said last night, we owned he/she so hard he LEAKED in his pants HAHA.

Really I don't think I could have asked for a better Oteam, or better comm members in Story____. These bunch of people, their energy and positive thinking really made me so much stronger than before, and it kinda reminded me of council camp, when as 1 batch, we managed to achieve things we never thought we could. We, as Oteam, managed to better ourselves, break down our own expectations of ourselves, and emerge even stronger, more united than before. And I really want to thank you all for it. For being there for each other the entire way.

Vincent and Ivalyn, thanks for being co-OGLs with me. Sorry I really couldn't spend much time with the OG, but seeing them coming out as friends and going out together for dinner last night just make me feel... accomplished. That everything was worth it. And I would go through everything just to experience the 4 days again. Thank you for covering my ass for so many things, continue to bake throughout the night as I sleep on the sofa, coming up with cool ideas for the OG and like calling them up. Thank you 2 (:

Story_______. I couldn't ask to be in a better committee. Even though we didn't think we will make it through as we went through the rehearsals leading up to the actual performances, I'm really glad to say that we pulled through. Yes we could have done better, but I think we're O'some enough already (: The hard work that everyone put it, to stay back just to make sure we get some scenes right, and sacrificing so many outings with friends along the way, going through rehearsals even though you may not have the mood for it. I thank you all. And for sets/props, thanks for braving danger and sacrificing your lives by breathing in huge amounts of paint fumes to make such pretty sets. HAHA too bad we can't keep it, but I really liked thrashing the sets last night! HAHA. Music, thanks for being so awesome and adding to the entire mood. without you all really Story______ would only be half as O'some! haha and chabs HAHA thanks for doing such much for us, enduring our constant suans and vulgarities and abuse HAHAHA. you have been an awesome IC (:

You know, I originally thought I would be crying my eyes out last night. Well i did tear a bit when Anthea said she was unstable HAHA but yea I realised that there was nothing to cry about. I had no regrets this time when everything was over. We have all done our best, and it has turned out great. No ambulance somemore HAHA. There really isn't anything to cry about. Instead, we should just celebrate, because we did things that we never dreamed of.

Just to remind everyone, G'alvea actually means Dare to Dream, and I must say our batch really dared to do the unbelievable, and made this the most O'some orientation ever! I mean who starts to party on Day 2 already man?

O O OO OO O OO O O O OO O D'ELCHANTO 2011 <3

Lets GO-O TO DELCHANTO-O~

2011-01-29T10:09:00.002+08:00

I COULD NEVER ASKED FOR A BETTER OG! LOVE YOU GUYS TO BITS YOU BUNCH OF CRAZY AND HIGH PEOPLE! 4 more days together LETS MAKE THIS O'SOMEEE HAHAHA

AND YAY VINCE AND IVA SEE YOU LATER XD HAHA thanks for wonderful ogls with me HAHA we make our OG awesome la XD HAHA

fml

2011-01-19T23:04:00.000+08:00

i can't believe i just lost it today

CONTROL. where did it go? haiz. disappointing bengoh. still cant control yourself haiz.

grumble

2011-01-17T22:36:00.000+08:00

LSTD

i'm bloody tired. SIGHs. why do i do this to myself?

no guts

2011-01-08T23:17:00.003+08:00

HAHA i can't believe i called HZ no balls when i'm the one who doesn't have it

HAHA

like omg i can't believe i actually like almost froze for a while heh

idk what i'm saying. maybe its because i'm tired and like zonked out.

but i really wish that i could tell you 9x - 7i > 3(3x-7u)

edit: I realised that my blog has became a grumbling place for me. maybe it cos i don't really want people to know in real life. idk

in other news. my world and my life in general is fine.

ashdiwuheiwhe

2011-01-05T23:06:00.002+08:00

sleepiness tend to make me incoherent. or high! haha mostly high though. a tired type of high.

gosh i so need sleep haiz.

school is starting

work is going to come in (like school work not others)

and i still have my other things to work on

but tbh i'm kinda happy that we went to mervyn's house to chillax that day. REALLY LET ME LIKE STRESS RELIEVE haha. i don't feel so burnt out now

but today was a long day.

i hope i don't screw up homecoming tmr.

or open house

and everything else like storyline. sigh

i'm damn useless.

acting

2010-12-18T22:42:00.003+08:00

is really really tough

omg. ): haha no wonder i didn't do so well. and i guess i understood why coffin isn't such an exciting mono to do.

guess i have to learn how to manage my voice register. omg alot of work to be done )): ARGH

CRIT COMM DIEEEEE

gradnight :D

2010-12-09T19:14:00.004+08:00

HAHA omg the last time i posted was more than a month ago! wow haha. but well a lot of things happened during this time. most of the memorable such as

1) losing my wallet and NEW handphone

2) retreat

3) hanging out with friends

4) story ________

5) gradnight!

anyway i felt damn stupid for losing my wallet and my new handphone. grrr haha. but ah wells my current wallet and phone is quite ok, and i like typing on it so whee. haha taught me a good lesson to like take care of my belongings.

anyway retreat was damn awesome :D haha my group (9) HAHA consisted of like me yek weixuan (wobblewobble) ashima alison mervyn and joshua sim :D haha we're like damn awesome la. and BW house D was damn awesome during retreat as well :D hahah but yea too bad it was too short la, 1 more night would have made it more awesome, though we would all be like freaked out by the ghostly encounters haha!

yeaa then there was this week that i spent just having fun. like tuesday went to watch HP7 with zhen and aaron (a spur of the moment thingy that caused us to run from bishan to ang mo kio just in time to catch it), wednesday going to chin's for his birthday (and his subsequent raping and fail bbqing and scary ghost stories), thursday going to nat's place for class bbq where like half the class turned up and i scared everyone through all the ghost stories, then like sat and sun stay over at mervyn's house which was like freaking awesome! hahha

so like currently i have been going back to like school everyday for storyline sets which are turning out really awesome (Y) so yeap we rule man hahha. ah sian i'm damn lazy to blog. gradnight post will be up soon i promise. once i get round to doing it haha. :D

peedubs

2010-11-07T21:04:00.003+08:00

ah wells haven't posted here in a while. the past few days have been really awesome so yeapp :D haha

but sometimes I feel like such an ass and wonder if i really deserve all i got. haiz.

BUT ANYWAY IGNORING THAT- i'm really grateful that I have so many friends that actually do care for me (: thanks guys. I really don't know how to express my thanks. haha this is a poor substitute, but I guess I'll do my best to treasure all of you more (:

so yeap here's thanks to everyone (though i'm quite sure most of you won't see it HAHA)

THANKS TO ALL THE FACEBOOK WALL POSTS AND SMSES :D

11S03M FOR THE KARAOKE SESSION, jess, zhen, khaing zin, and jiayhin for MCFLY <3

BW HouseD for the awesome time at arun's house, especially the cheesing HAHAH. wts man

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH ((: really made my day mans :D haha

why

2010-10-30T22:14:00.003+08:00

you make it hard to smile because you make it hard to breathe

haha what happens if its hard to breathe but i still smile anyway? haha. anyway secondhand serenade is awesome la.

this week has been super physically and emotionally tiring. am really glad its over. next week is going to be better. i hope

keeping my fingers crossed.

jiayou people (: for chinese for those who is taking on monday! sam and josie! whoo. and everyone else (: (and you too.)

2010-10-27T23:30:00.001+08:00

sometimes i should just be more selfish and think about myself more.

i think this time is the right time. I'm not going to just give up.

shine a light

2010-10-24T10:18:00.003+08:00

haha haven't been updating my blog after such a tiring 2 weeks. haha i feel really drained but currently my energy is back! so whee!
haha

IHC has been an awesome experience, and i guess it has really taught me a lot. not just about winning, but having fun through it. sounds cliched, but somehow playing as a team with people you just know, and continue being friends with is like super duper awesome :D haha

AND BW WON IHCCCC SO WHEEEE :D 2nd for IHC SPORTS THOUGH BUT WHO CARES :DDD HAHAHA

and i dread tmr, because of promo results. sighs.

and like what vincent and i talked about, i'm just marymount HAHA. sighs

walking home last night through bishan and toa payoh really gave me a lot of time to reflect. and i kinda felt this heartache when i saw the block we always trained at before hillary challenge. i miss those days with the team, and no matter how much i want it back, it will never be back. made me think about all the chances that i have missed or screwed up, and now with IHC over, its one more thing that will be missed.

time is passing so fast, and sometimes we all need to take a break to look back at what we have done, what we've accomplished. last night allowed me to do that, and i'm really grateful for council and HC. time to buck up. whatever happens tmr, i'll take it in my stride and strive on ((:

and now ending off with a song that i'm super addicted to

Tell me are you feeling strong
strong enough to love someone
and make it through the hardest storm
and bad weather

Fire falling from the flames
Hold me till I feel no pain
and give me shelter from the rain
forever

Where, can I find her

She took the light and left me in the dark, eh
She left me with a broken heart, eh
Now I’m on my own
If anybody sees her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh)
If anybody sees her

Tell me can you hear my voice
loud and clear above the noise
Even if I had the choice
I would not give up

Where, can i find her

She took the light and left me in the dark, eh
She left me with a broken heart, eh
Now I’m on my own
If anybody sees her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh)
If anybody sees her

Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh)
If anybody sees her

She took the light and left me in the dark, eh
She left me with a broken heart, eh
Now I’m on my own
If anybody sees her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh)
If anybody sees her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh)
If anybody sees her

a thousand suns

2010-09-14T21:33:00.001+08:00

oh yea i got it today! with my poster and my album. and now

HIATUS till promos are over! see you all then ((:

just the way you are

2010-09-11T10:25:00.002+08:00

haha somehow the past few days have been really unproductive. didn't do much for bio, but i guess i did like kinetics and energetics for chem. graphs and functions only but yay not bad la. but i guess i need to step up my mugging speed before promos come haha.

AND OMG. basketball yesterday was damn epic. i guessed i got better with dribbling and driving the ball in. and my shots are increasing in accuracy. but epic slide (Y) haha

and yay monologue was not too bad (: if i work hard at it i think i can actually get C or D for TSD! whee. haha. low expectations of myself man.

shall finish writing monologues for my characters now, and then on to mugging! yay. i shall attempt to finish 2 more topics today.

fufilling 20

2010-09-07T21:38:00.003+08:00

omg there's only 20 days left to promos. ahhhh got to do well! haha orientation and so much more waiting for me man!

anyway done quite a bit of revision!

bio - photosynthesis, virus, bacteria, DNA and Genomics. those that i really want to read --> organisation of pro and eu, mitosis meiosis, cell structure yeap :D so i'm halfway through!

math - done functions, finishing graphing --> should start on revision paper soon so whee

chem - untouched!
gp - untouched!
TSD - groups going quite well, successful online meeting last night. indiv's not so fine. ok mono is going to be quite awesome cos i thought of some stuff. duo is going to be quite bad. cos we haven't found a piece, don't have time to practice. so yea NEED TO DO WELL FOR TSD!

fitness --> i'm fat. hahah but not bad getting a bit of my fitness back. basketball skillz is back, still as noob at football. and i ran 5k ytd. wasn't too bad la.

haha come on 20 days! to become smart hansum buff boy HAHA.

MUG!!!

mugging from 9-4 is not bad for me i think. i quite focused. until got people come then i will talk haha. or else not bad (Y) yay shall try to extend it to 5
then slowly to 6
then i'll own :DD

22

2010-09-05T18:30:00.002+08:00

OH YEA.

i'm kinda productive today. Did like PW chapter 1, and then finished writing my scene for TSD. Read through Virus and Photosynthesis notes for bio, and did the bio mcq thingy. haha was doing a mindmap for photosynthesis but then ran out of ink, so i think i shall leave council room and go to popular to buy before i go home HAHA

can't wait for tomorrow. gonna mug hard man :D aiming to finish drawing mindmaps for photosynthesis, virus and bacteria by tmr, do a bit of chem (i.e. start on the promo revision book. 1 chapter), and hopefully a teeny weeny bit of math. like finishing up functions tutorial.

oh yea i have a plan. I'm gonna score my As and not get offloaded

though robot unicorn attack is so horribly distracting

81 always

2010-09-04T11:52:00.002+08:00

i guess the title says its all

we'll miss you sharan, but you'll still be with all of us. even if we are never going to manage 81, we'll still the <30th SC (:

good luck with everything in the future.

hope we meet again soon (:

30ths (:

2010-09-01T08:28:00.002+08:00

IW yesterday was really super duper awesome! haha got so many people to play frisbee (: was really amazing man XD and i felt great sprinting like on a field after so long ((:

went to get drinks and walked so freaking long back to the bus stop haha. but it was fun with kirk, pris, huiqing, mao, deep and kristy as company (: haha

went to liting's house, where we promptly got dunked HAHA. it was quite fun. but being the stupid me i accidentally knocked down this thingy ): haiz i am stoopz. when we surprised sharan it was really good :D haha super awesome man! and batch song wasn't the emo one but the high version so wheee (: haha

"You'll Be In My Heart"

Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand Hold it tight

I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry

For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always

Why can't they understand
the way we feel
They just don't trust
what they can't explain
I know we're different but,
deep inside us
We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other,
to have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know

When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on,
Now and forever more

Oh, you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be in my heart, always
Always

last week

2010-08-29T22:52:00.001+08:00

last week of school term

time is really flying fast. dont really have much time to blog now. shall update more tmr :D

haha

and yay BW HOUSE COMM IS >

stop and stare

2010-08-23T21:07:00.004+08:00

haven't had much time these past few weeks, getting so caught up with everything. suddenly had this bout of nostalgia when i accidentally clicked on some folders on my computer.

looking back, i realised that i have moved on, and left so many people behind.

I'm sorry for leaving all of you behind, and i really regret it, for neglecting all these great people who cared. i guess i kinda lost passion along the way, and tried making excuses for myself.

2K, 4H, Yaoming, GC, RINCC, Bayley, BW01

i'm really sorry. i have been super irresponsible and yea. didn't fulfill what i promised myself to.

but no time to make excuses. I'm going to do things right. set things right and don't leave people behind.

got to wake up and start bucking up man.

thank you everyone who have been along the way supporting me. i'm gonna do my best.

MOTIVATION!

workday ((:

2010-08-22T16:30:00.004+08:00

whee BW workday yesterday! it was really awesome even though i went late cos of dental (and dental sucks because the dentist apparently likes to see me suffer in misery and after like polishing my teeth and stuff i was spitting out blood so yeap)

ANYWAY. we were so imba we cleared out NTUC, valuedollar and shop and save of their mamee noodles, twisties and drinks HAHA. 11 cartons of 24 drinks from NTUC ftw! HAHAH. check out hilarious photos on FB haha

and yes I <3 BW houseD and houseComm

we're one big family ((:

seven of us <3

and my mouse died last night, but i got a new one so whee ((:

scorpion or something. not as good as razor but still good so whee

haha time to chiong PW! lets go. and then start mugging as well HAHA

weekends (Y)

2010-08-21T09:35:00.002+08:00

HAHA i really love weekends. a very nice break to waking up early and stuff.
(though i can't wait for this weekend to end before i get my hands on SC2! whoo)

well everything is starting to pile up now, and i realised i don't have a lot of time to study. got to start studying for promos man. i don't want to get offloaded because of my grades. and like what i got for TSD and bio during CTs shouldn't have happened.

really feel like studying all this, so i'll do decently for promos. hoping for a AAABC

which is quite a tall order, but i really hope i can do it (:

ah wells

6 weeks

2010-08-17T22:51:00.002+08:00

just finished chem spa today.

isn't too confident about full marks, hopefully 18/19 for error in readings that all. hmm

and promos are coming soon. and i DO NOT want to be offloaded. which would suck because i love storyline too much. so yeap :D

jiayou jiayou

shall start hardcoring tmr!

sick

2010-08-15T12:03:00.002+08:00

being sick sucks. i think i said that before, but yea i don't really feel well. sucks haha. my nose is like blocked and then cannot breathe properly. sucksssss.

HAHA ah wells yesterday was a really eventful day! haha storyline meeting from like 9-5? then in between bw houseD meeting from 12-2. and my food came late damnit haha. well at least storyline is coming along quite well now (but i dunno if i can/ is able to be a director) i seriously haven't tried it before, but i'm interested in it.

ah wells. and gradnight is doing great! whee. hahaha.

and i had a really weird dream last night. got me thinking about some things that i given up thinking about along the way, but somehow its making me think again. wts la. i'm too busy with other work now.

and i dread my december hols. cos i think there will be winter league, and storyline, and work to catch up and stuff. oh gosh.

haha thinking too much. promos first. lets go :D

going through the motions

2010-08-12T19:57:00.003+08:00

oh man haven't posted in so many days! haha ok short update about my life now!

monday was PW meeting! haha it was really quite fun, with my entire group turning up in red for NAT DAY HAHAHA. we met at Macs and then they came over to my house to do work. we were super productive (thats what i thought at least) and we finished WR! whoots

tuesday was spent reading zatchbell (which is so freaking good! omg i cried when i ended the series just now. so touching) and yeap haha.

yesterday was quite fun because of TSD! where we explored why ramadan and hungry ghost festival clashed this year, and random pokes at TOTA. omg. THEN IT WAS THE O TEAM MEETING WHOOTS. STORYLINE <33 :D hahaha

well anyways it was kinda productive, with people coming up with a lot of ideas, but well i'm really quite daunted now, because of our super tight schedule. and i have grad night. and if i'm going to be director/ actor, that means i may have to miss rehearsals >< oh man. i don't want to screw up my function, nor let all the hard work put in by everyone go to waste

(but i guess i'll deal with that when i reach it eh?)

and i surprise myself with random burst of enlightenment sometimes. haha. i realised that i really have been living my life the way i want to, being happy with what i'm doing. somehow today i reaffirmed how important certain things like frisbee and council meant to me, and how i'm happy doing stuff (like learning forehand all over again) just so that i can improve.

even reading manga, listening to music, playing my guitar, somehow this all adds up to make me feel better, and i feel ready to take on the world. and i miss 4H. aw man.

waiting

2010-08-07T13:05:00.001+08:00

"Let's go. Yes, let's go. (They do not move)."
- Samuel Beckett, Waiting for Godot

The best line in waiting for Godot. I'm waiting.

WHERE I BELONG

2010-08-06T11:46:00.002+08:00

WHERE I BELONGGGG WHERE I KEEP MY HEART AND SOUL (BOUNCE BOUNCE BOUNCE)

HAHA OMG AWESOME LA NAT DAY! it was seriously freaking great! haha. started of the day really early (at like 5.30 to get to school on time) haha met with tengchuan in the amphi then we went to change into our uniform.

the march in wasn't too bad! haha even though we weren't that coordinate, but our bangs were good, and yea it felt great wearing my ncc uniform after so long XD.

after that started to take down the decor in the canteen, and bringing them to ZOUK! whoo haha. an entire day of sound checks, and runs, and all us helpers were getting more and more excited! and then the big thing arrived! haha it was really really great that most people were high! like how we were so scared it'll fail hahaha.

i really liked the don't forget the lyrics part, where like the audience just continued to sing the entire song when they forgot HAHAHHAHA. super duper funny XD then the community singer at the end was the best! people on stage bouncing, off stage bouncing, people were really super duper high! hahahah i was feeling so happy!

when everything was over, i felt really really good HAHA. THANK YOU NAT DAY COMM, DARON AND RACHEL FOR HEADING IT, THE HOUSE CAPT FOR THE PERFORMANCE, RAFFLES ROCK, JAZZ, AND STREET DANCE FOR THEIR PERFORMANCE AS WELL!

whoots went with frisbee to watch sorcerer's apprentice as well HAHA. me shaun jim nick and jiayi HAHA. it was quite a nice movie, but we kinda took the last MRT back home HAHAHAHA

AND THEY PLAYED SECRETS! during the movie. omg damn awesome (Y)(Y) HAHA

zzz

2010-08-04T22:42:00.004+08:00

I WANT TO SLEEP

hahah super tired but have to get ready my uniform for tmr!

Haha flashmob was really really great fun today and i thought we were freaking awesome! (and i did the girl's part woohoo) XD

tsd groupings are out, so i'll be working with shien alot (haha storyline and tsd), and gerri, rasyidah, muni and russwong. LETS DO OUR BEST AND OWN As XD.

TRAINING TODAY WAS REALLY SUPER DUPER GREAT! started off with an agility thing that was super draining but useful, then we had lessons on how to pivot properly and doing low releases, which was super cool. THEN LAYOUT DRILL WOO HOO. haha it was seriously super fun, and once you get it right it doesn't hurt! hahaha so freaking awesome man :D

and scrim was quite fun! till i cramped my right thigh and landed on my butt after scoring. then like flying out of the entire playing field while trying to D then a failed layout in endzone HAHA. i'm like freaking killing my body manz! but it was seriously super good training (Y) awesome la!

AND ZOUK TMR :D WHEE

CANNOT

2010-08-03T21:44:00.001+08:00

I CANNOT GET OFFLOADED OMG. STORYLINE WHEEEEEE

HAHA AND I'M SUPER EXCITED ABOUT TMR!

LAYOUT DRILL FOR TRAINING AS WELL :D

hahaha yay tmr is gonna be so freaking awesome man! :D

INCEPTION

2010-08-02T23:08:00.001+08:00

HO HO I WAS SUPER GOOD :D HAHAHA

HOT DATE WITH KRISTEL AND JINZAW XD HAHAHA

but yea kena cheated cos we thought it at 4.30, but turned out the earliest show was 5.45. AH WELLS. IT WAS WORTH THE WAIT :D HHAHA seriously super duper nice :D (Y)(Y)

and now i got an idea in my mind (heh inception eh) for DF. I wonder if its feasible :D can't wait for the dec hols to fully flesh out my idea :D haha

and whee PW WR ><

boyce avenue

2010-08-01T21:24:00.001+08:00

I started out just listening to their covers of various songs on youtube (ALL SUPER DUPER GOOD) and now this song is the best among all those that i've seen on youtube so far

just love them man

memory lane

2010-07-31T13:02:00.002+08:00

HAHA walked down memory lane a few times the pass few days. first was POP on wednesday, and also yesterday night's DF

I was a bit apprehensive at first about our play, because well i heard it was dramatic, and that didn't bode really well at first. I'm really happy that it turned out good :D hahah yay a lot of people i can use for DF next year whee :D

HAHA and yes all the plays kinda ripped off a bit from 11 haha. omg made me remember all the times we had as DF08. hope that RJDF11 would be as much fun as i had that time :D

haha

WALUHU EH. time to get to school for some fun time :D (Y)

the memories

2010-07-28T22:46:00.002+08:00

HAHA went back for NCC pop today

and it felt just like the day before when i got the red sash from keith to lead the company, and then handing it over to dylan last year.

i miss ncc haha. feels good to just go back and pop by (:

and things are going in full steam now!

House, Gradnite, PW, work.

and people have been commenting that i look emo and tired. i wonder why. i'm not emo. though i won't argue about being tired HAHA.

and the night's a perfect shade of dark blue

2010-07-22T20:20:00.003+08:00

currently really addicted to this song haha

the past few days have been spent doing up J2 farewell stuff so well i guess i have to catch up with all my work really really soon (like this weekend)

haha oh man people CHEER UP :D i read your blogs and i see everyone like super emo, and on facebook also everyone with their sad and emo updates. haizzz.

I guess CT results weren't too bad, but a lot could have been done ): AAES ): should have gotten the E and the S. ah well shall work hard for promos and pull all these up (:

i really refound my passion in frisbee now and also with council. everything is really stepping up and i want to do well in promos. oh man and gradnite <3

can't wait for all this to go into full gear (:

darkblue.

Thank you

2010-07-18T07:41:00.003+08:00

I dunno if any of you are going to see this, but WELL DONE RAFFLES ULTIMATE. TEAM A I'M VERY SURE YOU ALL ARE VERY VERY PROUD OF YOURSELF (: haha

and team B, I AM SO PROUD OF US. because we got a lot better, and even though we were losing in some games we never gave us. and for every score that we did we went in and celebrated for one another. we do care about each other, and we played hard. And against ACSI and CJ, I think these are one of the hardest that everyone played for each other so (Y)

I really <3

so glad that I decided not to drop it

well so goals for next year!

1) TALK TO PEOPLE MORE (i.e people like denise and jinzaw whom i never really talked to)

2) INCREASE MY SPEED (AC mids are super freaking fast. must train to be like them)

3) IMPROVE THROWS AND CATCHES (100% catches, and no giving away of throws

4) LAYOUT! (didn't really get to do that yesterday ): hahah but ah wells XD)

maybe i should try to be a handler, cos I think we'll be short of handlers next year. ah wells see how (:

and I am so impressed by everyone. lingmin who slided in and koped the disc, mids like clement, bennah, jim, huanhock and gabriel running the disc down, nicholas who stayed in the game for so long cos the other handlers were injured, ervin, who despite his injuries continued to play, sylvester as well, being put in the D line at first but managed to adapt. jinzaw and denise with their nice catches, thanh as well. wynne with her good cuts and daniel cheong with the super nice D on AC (hah!). if not for them i would not have been able to run down my disc and kept to my mark, because its their effort that inspired me not to give up.

so my 4 scores (1 in HC, 1 in SA, 2 in CJ) and countless Ds (especially the one in CJ against swen heng?) goes out to them. if not for them, i would not have been able to do this.

as sampson said, we're not a team of star players.

WE'RE a STAR TEAM :D

INTERJC

2010-07-16T21:43:00.001+08:00

LETS GO LETS GO LETS GO

I HAVE NEVER FELT SO PUMPED

WE'RE GOING DOWN IN HISTORY PEOPLE!

don't give up

2010-07-15T21:10:00.003+08:00

its just 2 more days people :D

we're going to do this

LETS GO TEAM B! :D and team A as well of course

time is a wasting

2010-07-13T21:38:00.003+08:00

if everyone who looked down on frisbee weren't my friends, i think i would have very little friends indeed.

thats why i don't really bother arguing about whether frisbee is a sport or not. because you know what? it doesn't really matter does it? its something that i like to play. call it chess if you want, think about it isn't soccer just kicking a ball as well? haha ah wells.

and since i love frisbee so much, and i'm finally in team, i know where my priorities lie, because frisbee means a lot to me. and if you're part of a team, you know that committing to it is the least you can do.

sorry i have to do this, but yes frisbee is more important.

and to those who hate councillors and can't stand us, sorry about that. i can't do anything about it, and i have my fair share of it. so yeap. i'm sorry that you cannot stand what some of us may do, but i'm not sorry about council.

AH i sound so angsty but its true la. i'm just sick of people like targeting things that i stand for, while i just stand there and heck care. because i believe in what i believe, and there's nothing you can do to stop me from doing that, because i have faith in it.

and you can't bring me down

SPAIN :D

2010-07-12T21:38:00.005+08:00

INIESTA! SPAIN WON :DD

VILLA GOT SUBBED OUT ): TORRES SUBBED IN BUT HAMSTRING STRAIN OMG

PEDRO SUBBED OUT ): NAVAS SUBBED IN ((:

ROBBEN HAD A FEW GOOD CHANCES THOUGH HAIZ

anyway! went to rachtan's house to watch the finals! haha met up with kristy, hanis and jiarong at newton mrt then reached rtan's house. OMG DAMN NICE LA HER HOUSE (Y) hahaha ate a lot of wangwang with mandi and weilun then we went downstairs to watch 'He's just not that into you' OMG DAMN NICE (Y)

then it was the match which just dragged on and on HAHA

ended up sleeping at 5.30. and woke up at 6.30. and reached school at 7.40 for ulti training! haha haven't trained for so long, so was kinda excited. too bad coach wasn't here but it turned out quite well. after attempts at layout during SHINE, i finally decided to try it on the main field. i dived once (but missed the disc ):) and saved a random stray disc by diving for it so yea. was feeling pleased with myself

did quite a bit of drills, followed by an actual scrimmage between O and D line. we lost 8-4, but i must say we did quite well (: i scored 1, bennah tumbled into endzone score. lingmin scored. and there was one more that i couldn't remember. haha i did some weird layout thingy which became a tumble when joewie just hucked the disc. but it was not bad cos if i just ran i would never have gotten it.

BUT that came with a price ): now my right arm is like full of wounds from scratches on the ground HAHA. ah wells

TSD was quite bad, because i slept for like more then an hour before we started, and i was in quite a bad mood cos i didn't have enough sleep so yeap )): oh wells. and promos is coming so soon. i'm really worried

and just saw gradnite's workplan and its ):

i don't think i'm cut out for TSD ): i'm losing faith in myself. oh man. this wasn't supposed to happen. but this is kinda hilarious cos somehow rick astley's famous song kinda encouraged me when i was listening to it on the bus.

i think i'll try acting for my indiv for promos. just to give it a try.

BUT I LOVE ULTIMATE AND COUNCIL AND GRADNITE AND BW AND SO MANY THINGS. NO MATTER WHAT OTHERS SAY, THEY ARE IMPORTANT TO ME. so there. take what you want.

OMG

2010-07-10T23:17:00.002+08:00

I'M IN TEAM NOW

I AM IN SHOCK

AND I'M OVER THE MOON

OMG OMG OMG

BUSY DAY

2010-07-07T21:58:00.003+08:00

the weekends were spent on helping 5% formaldehyde, which turned out really really well during their A level piece, so kudos to them! haha PAC soccer was damn fun xD

lanned a lot and relaxed a lot this weekend, and well school starts again!

today was quite ok, managed to finish my set for my CT, even though its not that nice, but i'm still quite proud of what i did XD

anyway trying to finish my GP compre before i sleep early, for tmr is a really really long day )):

haha PE elective first (omg kickboxing gg la)

HAHA then 3 tutorials in a row, followed by doing GP CT essay in the library, followed immediately by chem practical makeup (due to upcoming SPA) followed by gradnite meeting, then general meeting, then accendo meeting at BARRAGE :D

haha ah wells its kinda fun, but i envision myself being SUPER drained tmr HAHA

oh wells at least we're starting work soon so yay! :D

SHINE

2010-07-03T23:09:00.003+08:00

HAHA shine today was amazinggggg. HAHA thanks to the heavy rain in the morning, the small small field was damn freaking muddy

anyway we drew lots and our team was playing against cahyed HAHA. sian ji pua XD but anyway we went to orchard cine for lunch, before we went back and watched them play. to be honest we actually played quite well!

haha ok la i should have subbed out near the end, but nick and bennah was subbing

so ))): hahah was super tired though

haha dived for disc twice and I'M PROUD TO SAY I DID MY FIRST LAYOUT TODAY HAHAHAHAH. THOUGH I FAILED TO GET THE DISC BUT I LIKE FLEW AND SLIDED ALMOST ONTO THE CONCRETE. felt good :D HAHAH

but i bit my lip and like uh

ate mud. which sucked

HAHA

whoooo but anyway after losing we deciding to go lan! so like uh jim, bennah, kester, wynne, ivalyn, nick, gabriel, sly and me went to paradiz and lanned! haha the girls were watching la, but it was damn fun. we had like L4D2 versus mode, where we had damn imba combo, especially my boomer self destructing imbaness XD hahha and jockey moving people into acid puddles

XD HAHAHA

whoots then CS! (the girls zaoed before we ended l4d) haha. kester, bennah and I were terrorist,

and the rest were counter. we owned them like uh 10-0? HAHAHA imbaness la XD

after that gabby, bennah and jim left, so we dota 2 v2, me and kester against sly and nick. huskar drow against medusa SK. HAHAH we owned :DD i farmed fat and was dominating my lane early. :D ownage! felt damn happy la. haven't played in so long HAHAHA

ah wells

crash back down to reality. back to work. helping J2s out tmr :D but the break has been good! and PW meeting tmr as well

SIGHS.

HAHAAHHA ah wells WORK is coming )): AND I GOT INTO KICKBOXING FOR PE

HAHA WTP. XD

instincts

2010-07-02T23:42:00.002+08:00

today i just decided to go and things that i want to do for once.

its not like its not justified. i think i deserve a break. so yeap :D

hahah

anyway NAPFA was quite bad

haven't really trained since i had my heat exhaustion 2 months ago. (haiz)

anyway didn't do as well as expected. 27 points, B for 2.4 (omg sucks 10.51 only), and C for SBJ (232)

wasn't a fantastic NAPFA. but i'm glad i didn't get worse than A cos i haven't been training for so long. time to get back into training

talked to maxhuang and rongjun for quite a while before we went to canteen for lunch. felt good :D

and then lanning with Flo, Kristy and Jiarong HAHAHAHA. Bengoh the noob XD HAHAHAHAHAH

then rushed back to school to get our backs, then <30th

which was so touching, especially at the end ); ah wells

AND TMR IS SHINE

i'm screwed la, super duper tired now. haiz

should sleep soon

and i need to talk to someone soon. ><

OVER

2010-07-02T00:03:00.001+08:00

ITS OVER.

KINDA STARTED OFF GOOD BUT WENT DOWN HILL. JUST HOPING FOR THE BEST

AND LANNING WITH SEC 2 PEOPLE WAS FUN XD.

and 30th outing tmr! awesome much :DD

but NAPFA in the morning and minioning

AH WELLS

REST A BIT THEN HIONG AGAIN

LETS GO!!!!!

last day )):

2010-06-27T09:35:00.002+08:00

today is the last day we're going to mug in council room for CTs

and for regulars like me, this is very )))):

SHALL TAKE PHOTOS THEN :D

i think i study quite well in council room, i mean as long as the place doesn't have a comp for me to use i'm good :D AHAH

so have to finish chem energetics by today, finish my rereading of bio, plus set design. hope to finish at least 1 or 2 pieces of furniture by today. AH WELLS.

i can't wait for CTs to be over! (and tmr i'll see 3M! but i think i'm going to lepak in the room when they have econs XD)

thursday thursday thursday :DD

4 more days, 4 more papers :D

AND I HAVE NAPFA ON FRIDAY WTPPPPPP. grrr. ah wells hopefully i'm not that unfit yet heh.

CTs!

2010-06-25T23:28:00.001+08:00

haha i'm left with energetics for chem, to read and prac. ideal gas to prac.

hmm bio just reread everything

math i'm glad to say for once i'm kinda prepared!

hahah

TSD is screwed, shall do some more work tmr :D

can't wait for CTs to start, cos that means it'll end! hahah then can go out and PARTYYYYY before crashing down for PW work plus minioning for J2s HAHAH. spotlight was quite fun, until i kiaped my finger on the lens thing. zzzzz

thankfully not much of an injury

then interjcs coming up as well!

then POP!

rereading old posts feels great

and council room today was full of people which is (Y) haha

and oh man to think a few months ago i was sitting in macs with waichoong emoing about JC life. how everything turned out so differently is unexpected

I MISS 3M! )):

Manfred's house!

2010-06-24T22:19:00.003+08:00

HAHA wanted to post this up yesterday, but was kinda in a bad mood near the end, so didn't HAHA

but yeap went to manfred house's today! haha minjian and i met up early at 10 to mug at bishan library. didn't really work out cos i kena stuck at 2nd question of probability, then i decided to just read comics.

met up with ted and hanzhung, ate lunch at s11, and talked a bit before walking to manfred's house. retardedness ensued as always HAHA. loads of crap

then ted's auntie moment in cheers!

'eh look sprite 1.85 only!'

'eh wait ice lemon tea 1.80! lets get that!'

'5 cents a lot of money ok!'

haha just go join the auntie club already la ted XD

then we mugged a bit with music blasting. about 2 hours i guess. i finished probability then, plus ideal gas law as well as reread atomic structure. was kinda productive for me. until we started exploring manfred's comp HAHA

the black and white picture of him was :DDD HAHAHAHAHHA. and then the other things that minjian found like TEDDY FACTORY. haha wtp some superbly retarded but damn fun game! haha supposed to make bears out of the parts and stuff haha. super joke la. XD

then basketball! hahah manfred wants to show off his kobe skills, so we went to bishan active and played, played a while until 3 dudes showed up, then we played like 4-3 with them. was kinda fun.

being in frisbee helped. haha i could anticipate their passes, and my jumps are like damn high. so i just keep on trying to frustrate the tallest guy cos i can bounce back damn quickly HAHAHA.

did a super nice layout even though i was barefooted XD awesome much. and we established that ted was a ball magnet. keep on kena hit by the ball. then manfred flew and kicked ted in the ahem HHAHA. super duper funny man XD

well after that went home, and on the way back some unpleasant thing happened, but thankfully its resolved now (: whee. haha

AND I AM NOW A MINION TO 5% FORMALDEHYDE. HAHA lighting. i think i'm supposed to work for them tmr. just waiting for them to call me HAHA. sighs. anything for 5% i guess? AHHAHA.

AND SET DESIGN IS SCREWED )):

limits

2010-06-23T22:58:00.002+08:00

people should just know when to stop

3rd time today already.

IRT

2010-06-23T08:32:00.002+08:00

haha was reading my blog from my sec4 year, and i realised that i really posted a lot a lot. and it was good. to remember all the things that i've done, what i've felt. its a good documentation of my life.

and i read about IRT from last year! hahahah

so IRT turned out quite ok, and my group had dylan, ziyang, eugene lim, michael lee, me, qiqi, isabelle (rg head prefect woah), charmaine, jolene and genevieve haha.

even though we got owned in both the captains ball game and the wargames, i think we did alright! cos we kinda passed the ball to everyone in captains ball, so hopefully everyone had a bit of fun (: haha. but damn so many people got injured! prischew got muscle pull, then yek crashed into me and kena abrasion on the grass. thankfully they're alright now (:

and dinner after that with GC and the 2 crashers was great (: talked a lot, and a lot of crap came up

i missed PB ): but yesterday was good to get to talk to all of them again! and how mr teo was just as funny as ever (: haha awesome la

baikla matthew and ken for organising this year (:

GC is the love :D

2010-06-17T23:22:00.002+08:00

was going to school to mug at around 10 in the morning. decided to take 13 so i could walk through RI again, just for the heck of it. turned out i met the prefects who were preparing for IRT (whoots)

haha sat there and talked to dylan, shengshiong and matthew, and caught up a lot about NCC (omg universal studios WTP) haha and GC. was really happy to be back in the company of my family, and then we talked a lot of random crap at subway, though some shouldn't be shown here at all HAHA. it was one heck of a talk man, from like 10-1 HAHAHA. we were just talking, catching up with life, talking about leadership, opportunities and stuff. and as a senior, i'm glad i could help them with what i've been through.

i guess this is what they mean by giving back eh haha. AND POP is in term3 wk5, hopefully i have that day off (: need to go back man. just to see everyone (: haha

and mugging today was semi productive! finished 3 more chapters of bio, finished poisson, started on normal :DD haha. tmr shall be more productive! and saturday and sunday mugging session would be fun too (:

ah damnit have to do indiv for TSD. HAIZ. TIME TO START ON/ IMPROVE MY SKETCH HAHA.

fairy tail

2010-06-15T22:17:00.002+08:00

Weak humans will always be weak, no matter how much time passes. However, weakness is not evil. Human beings are fragile by nature after all. Being alone makes us feel insecure, thats why we form guilds ... we form friends and allies. We bind ourselves together for strength and move forward. The clumsy ones may run into more walls than the others, and they might also take the long way there, but as long as you believe in tomorrow and continue moving forward, you'll be able to find your strength. And when you find that strength you'll be able to live your life with a smile

OMG OMG AWESOME QUOTE FROM FAIRY TAIL <3

life!

2010-06-11T20:36:00.002+08:00

haven't posted in a long while but yea HERE'S AN UPDATE OF MY NOT SO HAPPENING LIFE HAHAHA

ok monday was MUGGING WITH CLASS :D haha 6 people turned up, me manfred minjian jess zhen sho HAHAHA then rachtan came after lunch :D it was semi productive since i copied notes, and well uhhh i talked to people? hahahah but it was quite fun going to council room after that XD HAHA

tuesday was class outing! 11s03m <3

training on wednesday! got white jersey, did a new drill, did some mushroom drill, played 4O4D which wasn't too bad, and being in the team B d-line we still won the O-line 3-1 :D one nice endzone catch after mad sprint HAHA. but lousy throws after it started to rain but it was still ok haha. did sets then got our white jersey! :D whoots

after which lunch at pizza hut, played orbitals 'woah a eugene! no la only a yongen' and all the 'small useless walls' XD haha quite fun. spammed cheese for pasta, and damn funny tobasco challenge of bennah and HH haha. super funny.

then train trip there, was talking to nicholas a lot haha, then uh yay chalet :D AND GOT SWING HAHAHA. went to play pool, then helped set up and got the fire running, satay-ed a bit then went to play bball HAHAH. epic la. me gabby and kester against iva, kristel, jin and ryan chin HAHAHA. chin can only score every alternate point, and uh all our points are like half points, so in the end it ended 5-5 i think HAHA. or maybe 5.5 HAHAHAH can't rmb

but it was freaking dark so keep on missing

haha anyway everyone was like talking in some corner or something HAHAHA but i love the swings too much so i went to swing with my mp3, so i looked like some emo kid and couldn't hear them when they called me, so they thought it was someone else

HAHAHA i think i swing for more than 1 hour lor XD after that butt pain HAHAHA. BENNAH GOT CRAMP WHILE SWINGING HAHA DAMN FUNNY. ok then we like played saboteur till 3am haha

oh then after that wynne, iva, nic and me went down after the game then we stoned around with like sampson, mkwek, timho, janine, kristel, chin and then we had lateral thinking games, which was damn messed up and creepy ><>

went upstairs played cards with jim, sly and ah hock when everyone was waking up, and waited for wynne and iva to go breakfast cos everyone all left liao. after breakfast was more SABOTEURS which was super epic :D 6 rounds saboteur in a row whoots XD haha and i won a lot more than the night before where i only won 1 round HAHA. i imba saboteur XD HAHAHAH

yeap went for lunch with cahyadi, nic, hh, yongen, iva, sly, jim at foodjunction at white sands, then back home and did some filing!

today was BW houseD informal get together/ meeting hahha so yeap did some work and then went for outing! super fun :D and tasty. and exciting with lateral thinking XD HAHAHAH

so yeap holidays have been quite happening

should start working next week

JIAYOU :D

drumssss

2010-06-07T21:09:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA i'm like damn addicted to drumming now. damn good for stress relief and stuff

And i realised my this week is burnt again, so i'll have to start work ASAP. at least i kinda caught up with everyone HAHA. now to start heh xD. sigh

NEED TO BUCK UP. AND LIFE IS AWESOME TTM MAN :D council is really really awesome haha. :D

springcleaning!

2010-06-05T21:57:00.001+08:00

HAHA I'M SUPER PROUD OF THE COUNCIL ROOM NOW. DAMN NICE AND CLEAN AND I CAN DRUM THERE WHEEEE HAHAHA

it was super epic cleaning up, wiping windows with sergio, liqi and natgoh HAHAH. liqi and her detergent lol. then went to collect lunch!, and tried to hula hoop so hard until i sweated like mad. at least i can hula now :D WHEE

HAHAH then BEFORE i went for soccer, i had to move the giant bin back to the canteen, with all the trash along with it. HAIZZZ WHERE IS EVERYONE HAHAH

anyway soccer was really quite fun, no injuries apart from theo's sudden cramp HAHA. quite funny la cos he never cramped before HAHHA. but yea XD was damn fun. manfred scored the only goal, though he was playing like below average today HAHA. ewan was pro as always HAHAH

DAMN FUN.

then went back to council room with natgoh, then DRUMMED haha, followed by table tennis, then jianxiong, theo, ernest and aaron tiong showed up, and we played some crazy games HAHAHA

COUNCIL IS THE LOVE :D

CCAL camp!

2010-06-04T21:30:00.002+08:00

HAHA C1 is really awesome! i think we're really the group that makes things happen. from individuals that didn't really know each other on the first day, i guess we made friends with each other and well are so much closer (: haha it was really fun! and mr tan is really super funny HAHA

all the epic quotes

'i'm not bimbo OKAYYYY!'

'there are 3 types of people in this world. those that make things happen, those that wait for things to happen, and those that dunno what is happening'

'i'm only acting bimbo for these 4 days'

'i shall be sinful for tonight'

'i want to feel the JERK'

'LONGER, LONGER'

'ok ok go go go. go and shower!'

'do you see this scar???'

HAHA so many epic memories man.

i guess tbh i learnt a lot in this CCAL camp. i mean like how things would have/might have turned out even better when i was head of ncc. but now i guess i'm kinda prepared to be the vice capt for BW, and well I'll do my best :DD i mean like its BW mannn hahaha.

anyway i'm super black now AHAHA. had training today morning and got our JERSEYYYYYY! yay! hahaha i skyed SHANZHI twice lol. but overall i played quite badly today. i realised that my cuts weren't good, not fast/sneaky enough. need to learn from ryan HAHA. well anyway when coach asked why i chose 42 as a number, i said i'll make my own story about it. i have a year to do it. i will do it and make a story for it. ((:

I AM MOTIVATED :D

and someone is coming back today :D

focus

2010-05-29T22:01:00.002+08:00

i guess after today i got my priorities

i decided to give up on some things that i'm not good enough to go for, or something that is being forced.

i decided, as coach says, 'take what they give' and i'm gonna do my best in my current position.

i may have given up on it for now, but it doesn't change that i still have feelings for it. i will be back, next time, and hopefully, it'll go well

why have i always been so unlucky? haha people might look at my life and think that its great, and i kinda agree, but why does is it that i always never get what i want, and when i get it i don't treasure it enough?

ahhh asymptote ): maybe now its parallel lines. ah man )):

memories!

2010-05-27T23:22:00.002+08:00

oh man. brings back memories of viriya final performance! HAHAHA omg. like the one below XD HAHAHAHHA

clarity

2010-05-27T23:07:00.003+08:00

IT WAS REALLY GOOD TO BE BACK IN SCHOOL. throwing a disc, talking to people :D awesome la haha

morning met iva and amos at bishan mrt, then alvin on the train HAHA. talked all the way to council canteen and then celebrated veron's birthday

oh man today was really fun, being with the class. i felt super duper happy la! and then frisbee in the afternoon, where i just played and gave my all! felt really awesome can :D hahha like no stress, no worries about HC and things, just playing. oh man. it was freaking awesome. did some nice catches, screwed up some catches and throws (haha crazy high releases) and then had some funny moments. OH MAN I MISSED FRISBEE ): BUT NOW I'M BACK :D

and there's training plus tourney tmr! whee i'm so gonna die man HAHAHA sunburn heatstroke everything XD

and i decided not to care about what others say. why am i restricting myself because of this fear? hahahh so i decided to cast it aside, heck care, and get on with my life!

and i finished hikaru no go. OMG so inspired to play weiqi again, but haha my passion is in frisbee now. want to be like touya kouya! just going through everything, trying to find sai. oh mannnn so awesome! and hikaru with his fighting spirit. haha akira as well. so awesome mannnn.

sometimes, chess is so much more interesting eh.

BACK

2010-05-25T09:45:00.003+08:00

AND YES I AM BACK FROM NZ

Still feeling super tired and the jet lag isn't helping. the super hot weather as well. sian ji pua

but anyway NZ was really really fun, maybe i would type out my journal soon, haha today would be lepak day, tmr as well.

haha heard that team results are being released on friday. haha wonder what positions everyone else will play haha need to collect damn lot of stuff too

must collect MS shirt, blazer, homework, random things omg

NEED TO CATCH UP SOON. die la

but at least can frisbee all i want now :D ultimate

800th

2010-05-19T00:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WYNNE (:

MAY TODAY BE REALLY FUN AND AWESOME :D (have fun at training!)

I'm posting this early so yea I'm not really having internet access in NZ haha.

so close that your eyes close when i fall asleep

leaving

2010-05-11T13:06:00.001+08:00

hey friends

will be flying off tonight at 910. byeeee :D see you all in 2 weeks or 2 months depending if you're lucky or not HAHA.

and i cried today after i left school. i can't believe i miss 11So3M so much. love you all la :D

2010-05-08T15:08:00.003+08:00

something you wonder if things you do are the correct things, and even if it is the right thing (as you deem it at that moment) was it the right time to do it?

~~i have bad judgement skills i think, and i'm going to regret it~~

it turned out better then i expected (: great.

tmr

2010-05-06T17:48:00.003+08:00

its really good :D watch the entire thing on youtube :D somethings were really inspirational.

"Sonnet XVII

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way than this:

where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep. "
— Pablo Neruda

haha nice sonnet introduced to me by brenda :D.

rock concert is tmr! exciting :D wish me luck

6

2010-05-05T23:15:00.002+08:00

6 more days till i fly off

and bid our sunny island goodbye for 2 weeks

its gonna be one hell of an experience over there

but talking to jonsee just now made me realise what a burden this has become, how something that was fun have become so burdensome

i must change this attitude and give my all (in recovering haha)

hopefully i get to compete there, if not its just retribution.

ah wells. 6 more days :D

< 333330th

2010-05-01T13:03:00.003+08:00

with your hand in mine

we'll be just fine

ties that bind

leave no one behind

its our time

our time to shine (:

I just love 30ths too much. AND GRATS TO ALL THE EXCO! jiayou for the term ahead.

and sam soh our ben&jerry ice cream :DDDD

< 30th

2010-04-28T22:31:00.001+08:00

this is for our batch and our awesome batch song :D

out of our lives, and out of time, wishing I can be with you, to share the view

inspirational

2010-04-27T20:15:00.003+08:00

I'm sad today. I have no idea why. maybe its that.

asymptote ))))): haiz. why am I thinking so much about it HAHA. but sadddd. why can't i feel happy when there's so much to be grateful about.

and HC is going to be over in just a month's time. 1 month. i'll be missing almost the entire May haha. can't go for invest, or final nite. I just have mixed feelings about this. so much I'm missing out when I'll be in NZ.

but its gonna be one hell of a ride over that. and we'll do it (: for we are stronger than we believe. so i guess just go there and zam. now to zam the skit first i guess. TSD powers please come out. having no luck with it though ):

and a hero of war, thats what I'll be

(L)

2010-04-25T13:44:00.001+08:00

haha awesome song. heard it on the 'bai wan da ge xing' on channel u last week. kinda stuck in my head for the entire time :D awesome song la.

and i learnt it on guitar too :D so yay :D

sick

2010-04-24T20:00:00.003+08:00

being sick sucks. like big time.

like you tend to do crazy things when your head isn't right

but i'm glad

that my heart knows better than my head.

yeap, i'm running for BW capt. and this time, i'm determined to make it count.

talking to my awesome buddy nicole chan! haha during the physical reflection thing made me realise, that things had turned out wrong, but it was already over. and since i knew where i went wrong, its time to set things straight, and correct my mistakes. its gonna be hard, but i'm going to do it.

and i realised how much hillary meant to me, when i cried in my sleep on that wednesday night/thursday morning, when i was feeling so sick, and feverish, and powerless. i was afraid that i die, that i would never make it to NZ, and abandoned my team. but constantly chanting 'hillary, council, ulti' in my head when i couldn't sleep somehow managed to keep down my temperature.

I am tired of hillary, but i am determined to make it work. but not having luck in finding anyone to use for the skit. grah. i will find something.

i am determined to make all this work. i will.

council camp

2010-04-20T19:44:00.003+08:00

was over on sunday. i won't say too much about it, except that i gained a lot of new respect for many, especially all the girls in my batch.

even though they were pushed so much more than us guys, they still held on, while losers like me cramped more than 9 times and fell out. people keep on saying its not my fault that i cramped and fell out. but it was! cos i'm too stubborn, wanting to join back in to endure with everyone else, but only worsening it.

haha and i cried during the camp. 3 times. HAHA really weird for someone like me to cry, but i guess i was just touched? haha the times were like 1) when someone started singing our batch song 'hand in hand' while we waited outside the bunk as it rained. 2) our current batch song as we were in our static hold positions during heaven and hell and 3) when it was all over, looking at the completed badge.

this sense of togetherness, of being a batch, being one through everything really touched me a lot. even when we were all tired out, we still held on. Even though we may not be as good as the 29th and the teachers expected, i can say that is not all we got. I believe that my batch, our batch, the 30ths, can go so much further together. in the short span of 2 days, we already improved so much.

so what if we didn't call out and encouraged each other? when i was cramping, but trying to hold on, my friends held on to me, murmuring words of encouragement. as we held in pushup positions doing pushups, as i collasped time and again, again i hear and feel the encouragement. so what if this isn't seen? as long as it is felt, isn't that the point? so what if no one took the initiative when the CCIC's called for it? we all did do our best during our free time, to come up with ways to improve on our role calls, on falling in. I say the effort is there, and we just have to polish it out

I'm really really proud of my batch thats for sure. because no matter what happens, we're 1 batch, 1 30th council, and not just individuals. we are stronger than we think we are, and i'm really sure of that.

well anyway turns out my cramps were either heat cramps cos of dehydration or heat exhaustion, so yeap. missed school today. but it gave me time to think. what do i want to achieve in council? why did i join it in the first place? i'm quite sure of it now, and i'm going to keep that in sight.

for we are stronger than we think.

_______________.

2010-04-15T19:42:00.005+08:00

confirmed today that coach is only going to come in 3 weeks. which means when i'm in NZ the selection for the teams will be on.

i guess i can just put my hopes for the team this year down. no point hoping for something that will not happen.

and scrimmage today at amphi was fun :D HAHA both before and after my mugging session. the before one was quite crazy. yongen and i combo XD HAHAHA. he damn scam la please. then hmmm. oh yeap after mugging session aka doing math tutorial and trying a bit of chem (which i think is due tmr ><) i went back to playing

was in the mainly J1/sec4 team HAHA. did a lot of endzone catches today. sneaky ninja style HAAH. and had 1 nice D :D HAHAHA that was really good. after a while it got so dark cos it was raining and we have to stop.

haha as jon said

love the sport, love the teammates.

there's always next year, and i'll play my heart out to be in the team next year.

and now to PI draft which i'm stuck at. haiz. BUT AH WELLS I <3 our awesome PW group :D ME, SHO, SKOH, JIAYHIN AND KZ :D HAHAHA awesome!

and council camp is tmr. gonna do my best :D

back to the GOLDen days

2010-04-13T22:42:00.003+08:00

HAHA QUADRAPLE GOLD TODAY! DOUBLE FOR POLO AND DOUBLE FOR JUDO

OMG AWESOME MUCH!!!!

and the RJ match against HC for polo was super duper exciting and full of nice shots :D HAHA.

i was dreading council camp, but hearing what seniors are saying i'm hoping for the best.

but point is

I'M MISSING OUT A LOT IN FRISBEE ):

GRAH.

HAHA was talking to waichoong yesterday and i must say, i really miss my sec4 class. omg ): i dunno why it just feels good remembering the good ol times during chalet, in the morning at macdonalds, where the stupid and emo me started to be depressed and dread RJ, HAHA. thinking about it is hilarious.

RJ has turned out a lot better than i expected, so yeap (: OG, class, Ultimate, and now council. omg this is really cool man (:

its only 2 short years in RJ. I must treasure it, and stay optimistic (: its always better this way HAHA :D

FWAH

2010-04-10T18:19:00.004+08:00

haha i'm going to rant!

WHY DOES HILLARY HAVE TO CLASH WITH FRISBEE ): I AM FEELING SAD LA.

2 teams of 21, 42 people in total

NOT TOO HARD TO GET IN THE TEAM.

SO WHY DO I HAVE TO MISS ALL THE WEDNESDAY SESSIONS?

AHHH and the only session that i'm free to go for training at sengkang is the one on the first week of MAY

THE ONE 1 WEEK BEFORE HC. omgwtfwth. die la

and i was so looking forward to try to get to into team, especially after missing out on teengames and such. sighs

i just have to go for that one session, and hope coach changes his mind. somehow. haiz

but its ok. HC is still more important. we can do this :D

I will not give up, as long as there is still a mountain for me to climb.

she takes me highhhhhh

2010-04-07T22:15:00.002+08:00

HAHA exactly one week since i posted!

short update i guess :D

AND I'M FEELING VEH HIGH TODAY :DDD

thursday! april fool's day. HAHA WAS SPENT SLEEPING AND LIKE CATCHING UP ON SLEEP DEBT. YAYS. woke up feeling refreshed and energized :D HAHA

friday was good friday, in which i slept and slacked again. INTEREST HAS BEEN PAID :D

hahah

then saturday was really fun!

swam in the morning for HC training, 50 laps, even though i was slacking near the first 20 still felt quite good when i was actually swimming my normal speed. HAHA my breaststroke fast enough to keep up with francis freestyle! whoots. though its freaking tiring HAHAHA. then ULTIMATE OUTING! justacia, drinks, icecream, loads of lame jokes, crap, pool! teamed up with eunicethepro and we played really well! HAHAH :D

sunday! CLASS AND OG OUTING!

though it was only like 5 people for OG we watched clash of the titans which wasn't that bad! and i liked the mythology stuff haha. class outing consisted of eating and walking :D HAHAHAH

CLASS CAMP WAS ON MONDAY. AND WE RECIEVED THE COOLEST HOODIE EVERRRRR HAHAHA. IT WAS SO AWESOME! :D

nothing much happened yesterday though XD

AND TODAY! I LOVE MY TSD GROUP HAHA. WE ARE HAPPY PEOPLE WITH NO SUICIDE THOUGHTS AND SPARKLY ZOMBIES (think edward cullen) HAHAHAH yays.

and i thought i was serious about what i said, but maybe somethings cannot be forced eh haha

'beauty catches the eye, while personality captures the heart'

when both happens, its love

END

2010-03-31T23:44:00.002+08:00

HAHA ah wells campaigning ends for me today i guess? HAHA monday is class camp so yea

i guess everything is more or less decided. ah mans. i really hope i get in. I have no idea why people are more confident than i am of myself. HAHA

there is a full moon tonight. walked home. felt good

talked to vincent (WINSON!) in the afternoon also haha. was good.

i feel like emoing to myself. reflecting and stuff. just enjoy the silence. a good book, something cold to drink. haha. then sleep.

can only hope now i guess.

crashed!

2010-03-27T16:01:00.003+08:00

i'm going to sleep now after being out of house for the past 33 hours. its has been an epic 33 hours man.

Got through math tutorial on P&C with me '6th sense' HAHA and then pw, followed by 3 long lectures where i fell asleep during math and banged my head on the table, and then doing the 2 dollar thing to a lot of people in our class.

got back chem tutorial which i did decently well, if not for the questions that i did not do, and then the epicly imba bio prac in which i got 5.5/20 HAHAHA.

AFTER THAT WAS WHEN MADNESS BEGAN.

5pm - enter LT and picked up campaign schedule. MADNESS. proposal due on 8am today morning, 1st thought in mind 'oh shit'.

7pm - everything is over, left with a sense of dread, wishing everyone luck and to stay alive till tmr morning

8pm - bought dinner, thought of themes, got to claire's house

9pm - finished dinner, somewhat settled on themes

10pm - finalised themes, start of proposal

3am - EVERYTHING IS DONE! conked out

AND THEN THIS MORNING

woke up at 6.15, showered, breakfasted, and got to school. waited till 8 to hand up, and then waited till 10 to get back proposal, finished poster design by 11.30, went for HC training which ended at 1.30, then lunched and back home! :D

some epic moments during our burning of the midnight oil was Chocolate Banana Rotiprata, Big Raspberry Cake and Chem Bonding Rocks. HAHAHA damn retarded. and ryan and i were forced to wear Waddle shirts. yeap thats right. HAHAHA

BUT WE GOT NICE FOOD TO EAT! like omg. fried rice, yammi yoghurt, chicken essence. wow.... HAHAHA

even if i don't get into council i'm going to miss this period man!

council

2010-03-24T22:14:00.001+08:00

I got into campaigning :D

yays

awesome

2010-03-22T21:53:00.003+08:00

HAHA i just <3 frisbee

AND GOOD JOB BENGOH. YOU THREW YOUR OWN STUPID DISC ONTO THE GO LEDGE. NICE GOING THERE EH :D

at least i don't have to apologize to anyone

HAHAH

imba mugger!

2010-03-19T20:35:00.003+08:00

HAHA spent the past 2 days mugging/ trying to catch up on work that hasn't been done haha

on thursday, went to school at 10 to do a bit of throwing and playing frisbee, but only like 7 turned up, then it rained, so it ended early. ah wells i kinda grasped the idea behind doing consistent backhands, which has been the thing that is killing me so far. maybe i should change my grip. hmm

well anyways talked to ervin all the way till dhoby, where he got off, then i went to join nikki and joel at NLB, BUT THEY DECIDED TO GO FOR LUNCH AT ILLUMA. good job hahaha. but ah wells we went to the empire state thing at the top and guess what, met khaing zin, auntie gan, nat and claire mok there. haha but i got free cake so i'm not complaining! haha went back to NLB to mug, where i finished my bio tutorial, and a bit of my chem holiday homework (like uh 3 questions) which were quite long, so kinda productive!

today went out in the afternoon after lunch to meet dayna, shamaine and manfred and watch them eat lunch ahha before proceeding to the library to finish math assignment, and doing 18 questions of P&C, which i was surprisingly good at! :D yays. haha but near the end i think everyone was drained or something, cos dayna suddenly went crazy and went ' 讨厌！！！' which i found super amusing XD oh minjian and zhenling came halfway as well.

AND FMA IS OUT AND IS FREAKING AWESOMEEEE :D

ULTIMATE CAMP :D

2010-03-17T11:04:00.004+08:00

ultimate was really super duper fun. :D

SEXYBACK WAS AWESOME. OUR AWESOME LEADERS WEIZHONG AND JOYCE, IMBA FOOD IC TIM HO, RANDOM POPPER TIM LIM, AND J1s RYAN 下巴, AH LIAN YVELYN(i think thats how you spell it), KRISTEL TEHHH, WHINEY FRISBEE MAGNET AND ME BENG OH :D hahahah super duper awesome la SEXYBACK <3

i seriously love frisbee a lot, and i don't think i ever want to drop it with so many awesome people inside. :D

as jon said,

lets keep our <3

AND OUR BATCH ROCKS LA :D

model citizens

2010-03-14T20:44:00.003+08:00

oh man it was really really good! like awesome :D haha a far cry from dramafeste. the sets used was super cool, like cupboards with the back as screens that can be pulled up and down. and the closing of the doors were so symbolic. oh mannn

the actresses were awesome too! speaking in malay, english, chinese. perfect. it was really good. lucky to get to watch such an awesome play :D

AND ITS FRISBEE CAMP TMR less then 3333333!

was talking to kiawei last night on the bus back from DF, and well i was relieved (wrong word maybe? dunno what word to use) to find that someone else has the same opinion as me, and that is to wait, and instead make good friends that can pull you through when you need them. I feel myself making a lot of good friends in my time here so far, and i hope this can continue, and well maybe, just maybe i won't be as lonely and helpless anymore.

mcfly! :D

2010-03-14T11:33:00.000+08:00

what else can i say? awesome that i found this HD version of their tour! :D

BLT

2010-03-11T20:43:00.001+08:00

BIO LECTURE TEST

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of epic quotes

2010-03-08T21:33:00.004+08:00

jiajie

'the morning is still young!'

someone (i think weizhong)

' The morning is still young as jia jie is short!'

'i so hot when i roll up my sleeve the sun comes out'

and then when i rolled down it started pouring hahaha

manfred

'eh i was supposed to dao you today. nvm i'll dao you the whole of tmr'

mr liu

'its like saying that eating cauliflower leads to violence, there are other reasons why people ...'

'like having low self esteem...'

joel

'like cannot jump'

HAHA i love frisbee and my class for making today so freaking funny and epic XD

life's looking great

2010-03-06T21:54:00.004+08:00

:DD

hillary training today was really awesome, cos almost everyone turned up, and we did a lot of things, like PT and run and so on. only sad thing was that i realised what i thought was a minor pain in my leg was actually a shin splint, so the only thing i can do now is to rest and ice it, while concentrating on upper body

which i did today

like 6 sets of 30 pushups, 30 crunches, 15 leg raises, 40seconds planks (increasing by 5 every set), 8 pullups that decreased to 5 in the end, phantom chairs, and a lot more

definitely feel much better now, after 3 hours of sleep in the afternoon mwahahah :D nice to catch up on my sleep debt :D

and and and i'm looking forward to school! weekends are boring cos i'm away from my awesome class 11S03M )): i can't believe this but i'm looking forward to school every weekend. like seriously. even though 4H was damn awesome, i never really felt like this before. maybe because i took advantage of the fact that we would still meet each other in JC, but now in JC i realised we don't really see much of each other around to talk, but instead just wave (though i see the RA people quite a bit)

if i get into council, i wanted to drop frisbee at first, but looking at the awesome people in frisbee, i just find it hard. maybe i should just wait till i get into council before i decide anything else, if i get in that is. no point thinking too far ahead eh.

and i think mugging sessions really helped me become so mugger. i feel good about it though hahahah. somehow. knowing that i could actually achieve what i want to is good, just that it reminds me how i didn't do that in sec school. I should not regret!

because life is good now :D

of awesome GP speeches

2010-03-04T20:38:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAH too many to say

must watch videos on facebook group XD

and i realised i really really really love my class.

maybe its time to let go of the past hahah.